Oh Hello Stupid

I saw this piece of subway art the other day that said "Faith in the Lord includes Faith in his timing". And I thought crap, ugh why did I have to see that? I would rather sit and pretend as if it is better to be frustrated in the situation I was in.  Being the first child that I am, I am a complete control freak. Total type A personality. So this challenge of not knowing when Jake is going to have a job, where he is going to have a job or where we will even be living is awful. As usual this phrase kept repeating over and over again. And I realized my folly in being annoyed that I didn't know when everything was going to happen or how anything was going to happen.

Friday sweet little Ty turned 3 months old. I cannot believe how fast time has flown by since having him! He is quite possibly the best thing that has happened to me since meeting Jake. I love that little child more than I ever though was possible. He has filled this hole in Jake and my hearts that we didn't even know was there. He lights up our lives and I couldn't imagine him not being here. As I was thinking about Ty and the changes that have come into my life since having him I was hit with a double whammy of my stupidity and folly.

The biggest testament to how true this statement is, is sweet little Ty. I was not planning on having a baby so soon. It was something that at the earliest I would consider after we had been married for 3 years. But the Lord had something else in mind for us. It took a great of faith to trust him and his plan before Ty was born, but since it has been no problem. Deciding to trust him and in this new plan he was giving us was one of the best decisions ever. It hasn't always been easy but I can say it is definitely worth it. I could not imagine what my life would be like if we hadn't followed his timing on this important matter of kids. So after feeling like a moron as well as someone who is blind to their blessings for a couple minutes I realized that I already had all the examples I needed to trust in His timing. So little by little I have been working on being a complete werido about not being able to control this situation. For now I will enjoy all the blessings I have like my little family as I wait for His timing to tell us what the next step in our life is.

Love this fat cheeks!