If I had extra money...

Since we are about a month away from Jake graduating we have been doing a lot of thinking about our life and things lately. It is so frustrating and annoying faith promoting to have no idea where we are going and stuck at a rather large fork in the so-called cross roads of our lives I have figured out a way to combat my grumpiness at having to be patient and follow the Lord's timing. Clearly I didn't learn that lesson too well with Ty so I am therefore repeating it now. I guess I should learn that I will continue to have this trial until I learn my lesson. What clears my blues for a little bit? Looking at things I would buy in a heartbeat if we already had a job and the green that goes with one. I know...its a little backwards to look at things I would buy if we had money to help me cope with the fact that we don't have money yet but I blame it on pinterest and my addiction to it. 

 

I would love either a new  4runner or a new pilot. Unrealistic? Completely! Doesn't mean I still don't love the way these black cars look and that I can't dream about driving one.  This baby is what I am making Jake buy me when we our 3rd kid and cant fit everyone in my 4runner now. 

Now some more realistic things...

Here's her site!

 Isn't this nursery print the cutest?! I want to email the woman who makes them and ask her to do a custom one of a little boy for Ty. I have loved Paris ever since I went there in High School, and it only makes things better that Jake served his mission there because we have a lot of sentimental Paris things around our place.  I think this would be the cutest thing in his room, and would go along great with these...

2 Christmas ago we found this lovely book at Anthropologie (A store that I would literally live in if I could).

Yes that is what you think its Green Eggs and Ham in French! Jake has read this to Ty a couple of times and he loves it! He sits on Jakes' knees memorized by the sounds Jake is making lol. So we started doing some research and found a whole bunch of classic children books in French.

I think this is the book I am most looking forward to buying! My mom gave me my book that was mine as a baby and I have read it to Ty but I would love to have this one and all the other classics in French!







Speaking of Anthro...I seem to have an obession with white. I dont really know why since it is the hardest color to wear (you have to layer it so many times so everyone doesnt see all your goodies) and it would be messy in 2 seconds with little T. But since this is a dream list it is covered in white!

And of course there are other things in there like gifts for my parents and Jakes' parents for all have done for us, amazing b-day presents for our siblings and tons and tons and tons of things for T. But until I know where we are going I guess I stalk pinterst and dream.

Family Time

My life according to pictures

 

 

Like I said in my last post we have been loving the warm weather lately! We try and take a family walk every night before the sun sets. I look forward to this time of day more than most. I love the way everything looks right before the sun sets. Having little T makes me see the world in a new way and its thrilling to watch him look around outside and to take in the world around him.

Special Moments

My favorite moments during the day while Jake is at school are all centered around little T. I love the fact that the weather is warmer! We have been taking walks and playing in the sun. I can't wait for the summer so we can go swimming and play on the slides and swings. Its a little bittersweet to see him growing up but I am so excited for what is in store. I am so grateful for the time I get to spend staying home with him. I know that it is special and I will always treasure these memories, even those days where I can't get anything done because he wants to cuddle. I won't be able to cuddle him forever so I will take these moments as long as they are here. Being a mom isn't easy and little T is like false advertisement he's so good but these last couple of months have been some of the best of my life. I'm so grateful I married Jake and we followed the prompting to have a baby. I know it makes things a little more challenging as we now have someone else to worry about and take care of but we wouldn't change anything. These challenges that come from having a baby and living off our previous income allow us to grow close as a family. I love Jake and Ty and know that without them and all the other blessings that have come from God I would be nothing.

Big Changes

For about a week now Ty has been eating every 2 hours including during the night. I swear I dont know how I did it in the beginning with that little of sleep. I considered it a wonderful day if I showered and brushed my teeth twice (ok a little exaggeration I did brush my teeth twice a day dont worry) but seriously I did not wear any makeup other than cover up because no matter what my hair or clothes look like, my face should not look like I'm 12 so I cover up my zits to pretend they don't exist. But to go along with Ty eating as much as he did he decided for two days that once it hit midnight he would only sleep in his car-seat.  The upside I have looked at tons of homes and townhouses from American fork through Lehi as well as getting drinks late at night from those beautiful golden arches.  The downside: I literally looked like hell both days and my butt doesnt need any more late night food or drinks considering it is trying to squeeze back into my pre-pregnancy clothes and a swimsuit.

It is a little bittersweet having Ty grow so fast. We finally packed up all his 0-3 months clothes and started putting him in 3-6 months clothes. I feel bad for the poor child who only fit into his clothes for about a month. I have been pushing it as long as possible to keep him in the 0-3 month clothes because they are finally fitting his tiny butt. However I decided that I would rather have his clothes baggy and the right leg length than fit and be high waters, because no-one looks good with their ankles showing when they're not supposed to.

These are packed to the top with 0-3 clothes

Reusing at its best

In other good news Ty rolled over from his stomach to his back tonight. He was so anxious to get off his stomach that I think tummy time has run its course for a little bit. Thankfully it wasnt from his back to his stomach because then I am going to have to go to extra time to plan and make sure he cant roll off anything. Knowing my luck I should apologize to him in advance...he will more than likely fall off of something. Until that happens I am going to forget about it and give myself the stamp of approval for being a good mom.

Trials

Last night I did something a little rare and actually completed a crafting project from start to finish. I was a little shocked at myself. I decided to make a temple block for Jake and me and one for little T.  

Then I knew how much my sister Mackenzie loves the San Diego temple so I made her one.

  I wanted to give my family one of the Redlands temple since it is our temple.

I felt a sense of urgency as I did made these blocks. I didn't quite understand why I wanted to get these done so quick. Well as Ty and I were playing on the grass in front of the Provo temple today I realized why. Before I continue I thought I should share one of my favorite quotes from C.S. Lewis, "He died not for men, but for each man. If each man had been the only man made, He would have done no less".

I should begin by talking about how special my sister Brenna is. Yes she Is extremely unique. We always say she is the smartest stupidest person we know. I could devote a whole month to funny Brenna comments and posts. She loves everything about herself. I honestly wish I felt as good about myself now at 23 as she does at 15. She genuinely likes who she is, and why wouldn't she? She's tall, funny, nice (most of the time), and a true friend with incredibly strong faith. In December she lost a good friend who killed herself because of bullying. And today she lost a best friend who also killed herself. My heart breaks for my sweet sister and her best friend. I wish so desperately that people can see that life is so much more than high school and the challenges faced there. My heart breaks for those people who are so full of sadness that death is their only escape. I wish that those girls could have felt and known how loved they were.

Being a member of the church makes me grateful for the knowledge that I am a loved child of God. That he knows my name. I am also so grateful for temples and the sacred sealing powers in them. I love the peace that comes from knowing I can be with my family forever. I am grateful for my savior Jesus Christ. That he is always there for me. Before leaving for college my mom told me something that has always stuck with me. She said there were going to be times in my life where everyone around me would let me down, but that the savior would never let me down. He was perfect and therefore knows how to be a perfect friend. I hope that Brenna can know how true that statement is. I hope that she can feel how loved she is as she goes through this awful trial. I hope that the families of these two sweet girls can feel comfort. That they are surrounded by angles and can feel the undeniable love from our Heavenly Father. I know that, that love is always there it's just hard to feel it or see it during our times of trials. I also hope that we can all be kinder to one another. We should all follow what Plato said, "Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle".

A,B,C as easy as 1,2,3

Lately I have been dealing with a lot of stress and anger. There have been things that have happened the last couple of months to fill me with stress and anger. I have been trying to deal with all the emotions to no success. I know I have so much in my life to be grateful for, and I love spending all my time with Ty so I was sick of wasting even a minute more angry and stressed. I tried thinking of anything to help me and Thursday the thought finally came to me when I was getting a birthday present for a family member. I was going to start a gratitude journal. I am awful at keeping a real journal, it takes too much time to write in that's why I started this blog. So I knew that although I would never do a full page every night I could do 3 things I was grateful for. Since starting it has been amazing all the changes I feel in my life. It's nice to be rid of my anger and stress. For now I am enjoying spending all my time with little T and waiting to see what the future holds.

Fabulous Friday

Today started out with us paying off all 4 of the hospital bills from a very expensive December and January. It's so nice to have that weight off our shoulders. Now as soon as we fix Jakes car and sell it well be able to pay that off and then were debt free! It's incredibly exciting to think about being debt free. We've been very lucky to not have more, a huge thanks to my parents and grandparents who paid for my schooling and jakes parents who paid for his. I would not have nearly as much hope for the